Who Am I Poem by Marissa Ford

been crying for a day
I haven't found out my place
Why am i here?
What pourpose do i have?
I will never know
I don't know why i do the things i do
I don't know why i mess up
I was told if lifes a struggle then you're doing it right
But why me?
I don't want life to be so hard
I'm sick of making my parents disappointed in me
I need to change
don't know how
never asked for help before
it's something i hate doing
you show weakness if you ask for help
i've grown up being told don't show weakness
even crying is
this girl that walks around is me but she isn't really me
the real me is dead and won't ever return
she said goodbye the first night i drank again
she said goodbye after johnathan said he needed space
this girl that you see is just an image trying to get through life
i wish this wasn't me but i don't know how to tell you any different
this has been me for the longest time
not a day goes by that i don't think about ending it all
Who am I?
i'm so lost i need to be found