Who Am I Kidding? Poem by mona martinez

i'm hurting inside,
but i feel nothing,
it like i'm hallow inside,
filled with emptiness,
and aloness,
that ppl just can't understand,
in my heart i know ppl care,
but i hate living with this pain,
that walking around numb,
don't seem half bad,
why feel,
when your world covered in,
pain and hate,
walking in a fog,
that is worser than a nightmare,
why do i matter,
i'm done being strong,
i'm done fighting a war,
that seems impossibe to win,
who am i kidding?
feeling like giving into the pain,
i feel it now,
pain slipping away,
with just one cut,
stress lift away,
all this pain needs to come out somehow,
why not take it out on myself?