Why? Poem by SceneKid ...

Why do I live?
Why do I breathe?
I cant see why I shouldn’t leave?
Why do I fight for the light each day?
When I just want to fly away

I remember days where I had no facade
Days where the sun just couldn’t fade
Days where I was satisfied and free

But in those days
I didn’t see the shadow which lived around me
They took my spark
So I was blind

I try to fight
But they infected my mind
First they gave me satisfaction
But they took control
Of my moves and action

For shadows is not born from darkness
But from light.
So they grow stronger and wired me tight
With invisible ropes I couldn’t escape
It felt like my soul was in a rape

So many did me depressed
It felt like a hammer
Inside of my chest
I did my best for fighting the dark

But it had taken me destroyed the spark
I still remember each of my tears
For every dropp I felt like years
Years going on with battles in my inside

But still I did everything to hide
Hide away the thoughts
And the cold I needed a hold

But the only thing I grabbed Was my past
A past where I hoped the love could last Where the sun could shine a ray
Of hope to my heart

God I wish I never had taken part,
Will blood or drugs take the pain?
Something is just wrong with me
am I insane?
Still everyone thinks i’m far from border
But i’m suffering in a kind of disorder

Why do I live?
Why do I breathe?
I cant see why I shouldn’t leave?
Why do I fight for the light each day?
When I just want to fly away

I just want to fly away,
Let my soul ignite
So I can rest for eternity
And flee from the fight
I just wanted a kiss or hug
But I’m last at the lane
So I’m just standing here
Trying to kiss the rain