Why We Could Never Be Poem by Paige DeRogatis

Wobbling on tightropes betwixt failure and success
Signing off my soul for temporary happiness
Fire fuels my journey, hearts perish on the way
Many try to fix me, very few can stand to stay.
I drain you of your usefulness then leave you in the dust
for the euphoria of substance is the only love I trust
Obsessed wtih sin's excitment, I sprint across the flames
I'm the dust devil whose target has a laundry list of names
Still I claim that I'm the victim, you owe ME sympathy
Many loopholes I have found to rationalize my self-pity
Oh I wouldn't have rebelled 'if you'd only found the time..'
to lend a more concerning ear
to relinquish my most rotten fear
to hold me close and assure that
everything's just dandy dear..
So I sought relief and lied
and in your arms I cried
because I simply wanted more
all while I kept you on the side.
Now don't fret, your love is perfect
but not fit to quench my thirst.
Greed slaughters up my gratitude
and stings lovers the worst.
Leaving you with questions and me without a care
yet stumbling to make it when you're no longer there.
This cruel and vicious cycle has been a habit hard to break
But thank you for addressing that with it, my life's at stake.