Whys Poem by John Zxj

(yesterday a friend told me she was really sad, or mad to be exact, because her boy friend had another girl. You must know, as a traditional Chinese girl, it is really hard for her to accept. She asked me what to do.And I thought if I were her, I would......Acutually, I have
no idea. Maybe I would say it's over and leave..... Instead of figuring a way out for her, I just write this peom. Yeah, a peom, if it can be called a peom.)


I just wonder why
why it rains
why the sky is grey in this way
why i am a slave
why i am a slave to this trade
why i am afraid
why i am afraid to be betrayed

why it was veiled
why not get things straight
why you said love me but forgot my birthday
why you didn't love me but you didnt' say
why u faked
why u was so badly behaved
why u had another but still sent me mails

why i failed
why i did the silly effort to save
why it was all to no avail
why it's like a train get derailed
why i was dismayed
why my mind was in disarray
why i hated
why i wailed and got carried away

'please stay, ok? '
no way, I say
pack my bag and be away