Winter Kiss Poem by Jordan Si

I miss you in the moments
my brain tries to make myheart forget,
and I wonder if you remember the curvesof my body
the same way
I remember every coloredspeck in your beautiful eyes.
Accurately enough to cause insanity.
Do you remember the nightswe stayed up late,
discussinganything and everything like weactually
had the world figured out?
Because those memories seem toricochet
off the inside of myprotective wall
until I'm holdingmy breath
just to avoid the pain
of breathing without you.
It's a slow pain that crawlsthrough my veins and gnawsat my organs and nerves,
desperately following streamsof weeping blood
in hopesofdestroying my aching heart.
Sometimes I wonder
if seeingyou again would make it stop,
if only for just one moment,
so I can catch the breath I'vebeen chasing for so long now.
You were always the breath Icould never seem to catch, andeven when I think I've moved onyou're there in the back ofmy mind,
reminding me that I haven't reallyinhaled fresh oxygen in years.
For just one night, could youbreathe some life back intothese mummified lungs so Ican remember how it feelsto truly be alive?