Wishing For Yesterday Poem by Karin Elizabeth Martin

Am I crazy, am I a dreamer...
Am I old and grey, am I living vicariously....
Thru my own life, if I wish for...
Yesterday
I remember many things, wrong right or impulsive...
None of them are my past memories of my life...
My experiences, my failures, My miracles...
These are the things that matter the most...
They never fade, never go away, never surrender...
My conciousness reminds me of these times...
Bittersweet but so lovely and worth resurrection...
They made me happy, sometimes sad, sometimes angry...
But always victorious

I remember you and you and you...
Your ways, your words, your little quips and love notes...
I have your handprints, cast in primary colored ceramic plates
Little hands, Big Hearts, loving words....

Maybe I was always busy thinking of what should happen next...
But I always treasured you and your thoughts, feelings, prayers...

I miss what I may have rushed over...
I wish I could give it back to you, them, theirs...
I would do this all again... No knowledge or experience changed...

I do not regret all I have done and who you have shaped ne to be...

I wish for yesterday...
Only because I want to feel those emotions again...
Fix what I may have done wrong, right or even...
And reassure you....

You have shaped who I am today...
And I remember yesterday...
I would give my soul to feel the heartbeat of these things and thoughts...

I will always love what I learned...
Please keep teaching me children, friends, family...
I will never forgive or forget...
Yesterday....

I would do everything again with you...
And will always wish for 'yesterday'....