For with this desire of physical beauty mingled itself early the fear of deaththe fear of death intensified by the desire of beauty.
(Walter Pater 1839-1894, British writer, educator. originally published in Macmillan's Magazine (Aug. 1878). the narrator, in "The Child in the House," p. 163, repr. In Miscellaneous Studies, Macmillan (1895).
Regarding Florian Deleal.)
Celibacy and suicide are a similar levels of understanding, suicide and a martyr's death not so by any means, perhaps marriage and a martyr's death.
(Franz Kafka (1883-1924), Prague German Jewish author, novelist. The Third Notebook, November 24, 1917. The Blue Octavo Notebooks, ed. Max Brod, trans. by Ernst Kaiser and Eithne Wilkins. Exact Change, Cambridge, MA (1991). Dearest Father: Stories and Other Writings, trans. by Ernst Kaiser and Eithne Wilkins, New York, Schocken Books (1954).)