Raquel C,,

I want to be in love
is that wrong?
the thought of someone who jus wants to see you
just to be wanted
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here i am in my blanket of hopefull happiness.
will it comforrt me.....................No, yes i can admit it
hmmmmm is it so wrong to dwell on the past to wish that i had vans instead of airwalks Gap instead of Goodwill im not angry just...
regretfull, sad, lonely, depressed
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one word, somthing............
.....actually nothing......
freakin ipods, shoes, money
isnt gonna satisfy me
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the wiser i get the more afraid i am
because now i know why my elders said not be here
but somehow this is where i ended up i think we all end up here
our 'Here's' are different then their 'Here's'
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i wish i didnt have to write
i wish you would already know what im saying
every emotion that plays across the face that i know so well
is painfully apparent to me
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Everything within me aches and burns
I hate who you are not you
I hate that i have to prove myself to you
I want you to love me
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I ache for a lover of my soul
A carrier of my pain
One who has intrest in the state of my heart
In what i see when i close my eyes
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Before:
I know that moment
The moment when I realized I lost something
when I felt the ache start in my stomach then travel to my heart
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da da dee da da dum
i hear music
My music
good music
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