Sinomhlobo Marwanqa

In a trance I heard
The words of my beloved mother
''Sinomhlobo, he's dead''
I held them long enough
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Hands that will never meet
Lips that will never hold the moment
My mind cant reason
Yet my heart bears the torment
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Ndinesigulo. Hayi ayisose ngqondo
Kodwa into nantsi ihlaba entliziyweni.
Ithi mandiye kwantliziyo ndise, nyawo ndikhaphe.
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The energy I do not have to fight this
Its like a black hole reeking my sense of pride
Its feels like with it I'll never have peace
For the past few days its been taking me for a ride
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It is a gift
A gift that can elevate yet without it you seperate
Mna ndiphiwe isipho
Sisipho sam
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If you're looking for love.
Close your eyes
And with all the available toys
Expect it to play with your feelings
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Spotlight; Concentration
As blood on the journey of filteration
Visible moans in detention
Barely minding the smiles constructed
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Remember me tonight before you fall asleep
Earlier tonight I held my breath
Patiently waiting for you to fall for me
Instead of falling into your support
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In the beginning the word created life
In the end the beginning took away all the strife
As I breathe I am incomplete and such is life
Such is life of one who hasnt found their better half
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I carry this anger inside of me
Tentatively asking myself why
With wet eyes, the future I foresee
In my case it would be homicide if I die
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I tried so hard to not pay attention
Yet this that I feel sends a convulsion
Things that you once felt; call it a repulsion
Things that once hurt; not my definition
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Every second it beats.
Yet I cant feel a difference from the one before
If it happens I ascend and leave the current and go to the permanent what happens to the beat.
Does it live on?
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Was I the cause of my fall.
Did I let him ruin me
Like a mirror that fell I was down on the floor with nothing but pieces of myself only too sore.
Quickly I mend myself trying to not show any signs.
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See the stars at night
Available yet so far
Raise me
Streams of tears running down my throat
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To begin my journey of years to come fell a solitary teardrop
What my head screams to excrete
Is what my heart wails to keep
With a teardrop at the end of the day
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The say she was a real womaThe say she was a real woman
With big brown eyes
With a smile that belittled the staWith a smile that belittled the stars
With a full round face like mine
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The gulp of fear down my throat
The grasp of spikes in my hand
I'm a sinking ship with no means to keep this boat afloat
Obliged to sensibly save one was nothing grand
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The beat of a drum
Brings nothing but joy
A smile of a child in the sun
Playing with his toy
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Dear
I hope you feel the same way
Because I still do everyday
Four full orbits after May
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I'm yet to heal
Pinch myself to know it's real
Maybe I'm just under this peel
All was done with utter skill
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