Sky Blue

sing to the words.
smelll the fresh air.
live like you never have
spin around the spotlights on you.
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today; i got into a accident. i didnt get another heart beat.
i would walk my own path.up to a blue and white limit.
myself; i would pack and leave the world upon my shoulders.
walking right into the lighted door thatwas calling my name; will lead to a miraculous life.
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a robot...
no loved nor to be kept.
no feelings to hide inside or out.
flowing with life, getting over with life.
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i cant face you tomorrow.
i have to see you for the rest of the year.
i am a coward. holding in all my feelings.
why cant i get away from you.
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tonight. i will sleep. in a deep sleep.
i will hopefully never awake again.
but why do i still want to see you one last time?
i love you so much.
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its pitch black somebody help me i cant see anything
i look in your big blue eyes dancing in my dark brown sight
i want to take you with me. maybe to a land where it is just me and you.
we can play ball, cuddle with eachother, stay side by side forever.
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i think im ready now.
to get over you. to finally wait till someone finds me and actually can love me.
i can believe in my self. like you couldnt for me.
i want to do things i want to do. i want to have a boyfriend that will support my dreams. i want someone to say its okay your dream isnt foolish at all.
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i just want somebody to find me,
love me like crazy. For the very first time
i want to mean so much to somebody.
i dont want to lie to myself any longer.
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i dont know if this is real love or not.
but every time i see you my heart aches.
and your with the one you love.
walking past me as if we were strangers.
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if i had one wish; it would be to have wings
beautliful blackk and white wings. i could fly to you up in the stars.
reaching for hope. soaring for anxiety.
as we all know a dream is just a dream.
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my life is tainted with black and white.
only a television from the old times could see.
my heart throbs by the sounds of warmth
i wish the painful sounds of screaming would go away
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the anxiety i feel, other people.
i relate to there insides feeling.
never being noticed.never being heard.the crys within there heart,
no distance they can reach to the stars.
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who am i?
i dont know what i can be or what i can do.
i wish to know what kind of person i really am.
not the rudeness i am with other people.
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having a friend, to brighten your days.
to think they dont understand you when they really do
you think theyre just using you to get through a year or 2.
the more risk they take for you. the more caring they can be, understanding, trusting, wondering for you..
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why is it always me.
why do i keep making the same mistakes?
why do i keep falling so hard for.
my like is so honest.
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ive wrote enough about you.
but i just cant stop. i can never forget the feelings we had for eachother when we were in the moment.
i could never forget the times we spent together.
i wanted to just be with you forever. an everlasting unregretful life with just me and you
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