You're a great writer... and it's okay that you write poems instead of crying. I myself, am a closet cryer (if you know what I mean by that... hey, maybe you do, maybe you don't) and basically put an mask on when I'm with anyone. all I can say is paper's my best friend.
Peace out from the girlie scout,
My destiny is to dream Dream of who I want to be
My destiny is to live the way I want to Live in independent freedom