Pretending Poem by silke m..

sometimes it feels like
I'm just a petatic little girl
sometimes it feels like
I'm a failure to this world
sometimes it feels like
I'm always ruining somebody's day
sometimes it feels like
nobody really wants me around
sometimes it feels like
whatever goes wrong, it is my fault
sometimes it feels like
I'm just a waste of my own time
sometimes it feels like
I'm just drawling myself
and maybe I am

Maybe it's just my own illusion
maybe it is my own fault
that I'm lying here alone
maybe I am somehow afraid
to face myself this way

sometimes I wonder
what am I doing here
sometimes I wonder
am I just weighting for a push
sometimes I wonder
am I really so independent
sometimes I wonder
why I wanna be afraid
sometimes I wonder
where did everybody go
sometimes I wonder
what chased them away
sometimes I wonder
or are they still there for me

Maybe it's just my own illusion
maybe it is my own fault
that I'm lying here alone
maybe I am somehow afraid
to face myself this way

thought I was locked in a cage
but I found out
the door is open
I am free to fly

Maybe it's just my own illusion
maybe it is my own fault
that I'm lying here alone
maybe I am somehow afraid
to face myself this way