Sober Poem by Jade Baker

It was a lifestyle,
I became used to,
It was a downward spiral,
And I was out of control,
I thought that it would numb the pain,
But when I was sober,
It was back again

It started out so innocent,
But the further it went on,
Reality was gone,
With blurred days and wasted nights,
Still the emptiness remained inside

I wanted to change,
But I still couldn’t’t erase the pain,
Sober I was a mess,
Demons in my head,
I wanted to be normal,
I wanted to see the world beautiful,
But I couldn’t’t stay sober long enough,
I was so out of touch

Staring down the end of another empty bottle,
Everything was so unclear,
As I watched the ones I loved disappear,
Another night spent in a bathroom stall,
With my back against the wall,
Still I couldn’t’t see,
How much it was destroying me,
I was on a one way road of destruction,
There was no shame,
Cause there was always someone else to blame