topaz africa

my skin has been kissed by the African sun
my feet have walked the African soil
the movement of my hips tell my story
the flash of my smile makes you forget your worry
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country as free as a bird
born in a free world
you would think i have it all
you would think im also free
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which color am i lord?
answer me and feel this void
my color comes with so many shades
and make it difficult to choose
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many poets i hear write about
the grass growing
the sky being blue
the rain falling down slowly on the windowpane
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Inside I’m sensitive and emotional
But many times I seem to be scared of no-one
I always hang on to the past with everything g I have
And in the process I always lose my nerve
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ever wondered how it would feel
if you can just let your feelings flow
ever wondered what you could see
if you could let your imagination go
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thoughts of you running through my mind
confusion clouds my thinking
thoughts of deception are attacking
suicide keeps ringing in my head
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sometimes i watch myself watching you
i don't know how i do it
it comes naturally as a heart beat
sometimes i catch you watching me
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do you know what it feels like
to be excluded from the rest
having no clue where to go next
ever felt so desparate to belong
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release me from this prison
unlock my heart from this hell hole
my demons are after me
i seem to have lost control
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Walk slowly.
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screaming so loud
but no-one is hearing
the screams are more than a sound
they are a cry for help
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my heart my soul my being
have tried to reason with you
tried to spare me of such feelings
feelings that never go away
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the smell of yourskin stays with me
your wodrs to me achoes in my head
my skin feels the sensation of your touch
when i think about how you kiss my neck i blush
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don't ever stop
the way you touch me
coz you've got the softest touch
don't ever stop
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everywhere i go
people ask me the same thing
are you really
for a while i did'nt understand
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life filled with words unsaid
dreams threatning to be forgotten
wishing to go back in time
wanting to go back to yesterday
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if i should die now without apologizing to the people i love
that i have hurt in my life
would my soul be free
if i should vanish into the face of the earth
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i just can't do anything right
everything i touch turns into stone
people stay away from me
i'm cursed with a dark disease
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