I blame you for this empty heart.
I blame myself for all the deception.
I blame you for being so far apart.
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Ocean waves crash along the shore.
Seagulls shriek and soar.
Reflections of the past cloud my mind.
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Why do I lose things to find out what they really mean?
Fragments of a heart broken in my hands.
Feelings of betrayal that seize your soul.
The loneliness digging the deepest hole.
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It has been a long time, so many
dusk's and dawns. The heart is
ticking and you keep rolling on
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Age has caught up. Will my acceptance be the key?
Where will this road take me? What will my final thought be?
Does fate decide this? Will I be ready to accept my faith?
The reflection in the mirror will always tell.
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Silent cries for help comes to me.
I need to put forward a plan to be.
The choice could be at great cost and sorrow.
Do I pursue the option and have no tomorrow?
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The getaway is closing your blue eyes.
Your escaping this world of demise.
The cries of the despair grip you.
Feeling alone not knowing what to do.
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It has been 30 yrs and incessantly the pain is there.
Sitting in the county hospital lounge that day without a care.
You wonder what could have been and why life isn't fair.
The blank stares of nurses doing what they could.
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Am I losing my mind
or just wasting time?
Bring me the intact mind that once was.
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