I'm Alyssa but you can call me Blackbird if you'd like. I'm 18, and I've been writing since I was maybe 12 or 13. I have poems in random places all over. Theres something I find so free about poetry, theres some sort of magic when those words hit the page, as if fairy tales were just some sort of allusion, while on the other hand poetry is my reality. Poetry is also...my home. Carrie Rudzinski is my favorite poet she does spoken word 'Elbows and Dear Stranger' are my favorite by her, she's on youtube if you ever want to check her out.
Oblivious to what I’m trying to say, yeah you’re oblivious. I want to scream cuz I have feelings for you, but you act like your too blind to feel it too. I feel so dumb for even wanting anything…and you’re the one to blame tricking me, making me think you feel the same.
Dumb girl don’t go thinking he doesn’t feel the same, yeah your being a dumb girl, I swear some days he can’t even remember your name. “What am I supposed to do? ” Dumb girl stop, stop. Get the boy out of your head, doesn’t matter cuz all the lines are all read. You gotta give the rest of em a chance, stupid girl, high schools not for romance.
Walking, waiting, why? Wake up, face something. Or take a chance and take matters in your own hands. Or you could always open your eyes and stop being so oblivious, maybe there’s some other boy out there. You know one comes to mind. Oblivious to him your walkin blind.
Dumb girl your being a dumb girl when you could be smart, this boy could break your heart. Dumb girl, quit being such a dumb girl, and let it in…. feel the rush upon your skin. Your completely oblivious to what I’ve been trying to say, just wish you could look me in the eyes and tell me “it’s okay” that you too feel this way.
I’m not the girl who’ll put out
I’m not the girl who’ll give in
I’m not the life-sized barbie doll, who’ll just let you have her & transform her as you wish
I’m not typical or “normal”
I need some time, I need a change. Don’t know how to believe in love, when at my age it merely washes away. I need a breath, need some space, I need something today...
Fill me in take the heart, see me, use me to play a part, find me wherever I may turn, fill me in on the lessons we learn.
Yesterday is a memory, tomorrow is too far, I can’t see. Hold my hand, take a chance, let’s learn all over again how to dance.