I’m doing it again, attaching a new scar to your heart every time.
If I keep this up, will you ever have faith in me like you did way back when,
Before all of this went to ‘falling apart‘.
How can we be here together holding arms under sarcasms of colliding lies
After eight years beyond uncomforting realizations of our differences,
No one even cares about us anymore.
…And you don’t even care about us anymore.
….Or what happens to me in the end.
It took four years just to realize
You don’t even exist here anymore.
Everything in our memories seems so surreal
Would things be different, if you had anything to remember,
Because I can’t remember anything anymore
….About what happened to you…
….Or about what happened to us….
It feels so eccentric,
How disconsolate I feel without you
You didn’t even care to believe in me
Why should I even care that you left
It’s so hostile, how I have to suffer through all of these light waves
Striking me inside with your memories
Trying to adapt your life into my soul just to stay alive.
Why do I have to stay here like this...
Can’t I just follow you to where memory ends...