The fear of consequence was a fence
to lock me in and block my confidence
and make me feel incompetent.
I realize that it's all internal
in my mind
the cost is steep
and losing sleep is making me nocturnal.
Trying to defeat this rival
but upon arrival I can see
that its just me
battling my own self for survival.
Thoughts my greatest adversary
the foe that I know best
I never would have guessed
that this war was just a test
and every time I'd pass I'd fail
because I still can't beat me at my best
so I'll have to tip the scale
and see what happens next.