Biography of Connor Whyte
My name is Connor Whyte and I have been writing poetry since I was Eight years old. As A kid I had a very Traumatic life and was born into A world of hate.
As I grew older I had trouble focusing on what was right but instead what was wrong and I began to take up poetry since I felt no one would ever understand me.
As time went on I grew wiser and more strong but at the same time got stupid. I had done something terribly wrong at the age of 16, I was caught for the wrong I had done and was taking away from home and put in A Program for kids with criminal behavior. From there on I started my quest to do right but as I made progress there was someone in the program that was not what you would call a good person and I was kicked from the program after a whole year of doing great. My probation officer saw I made huge progress and I was rewarded to go home. Now that I am home I have seen what horrible people are like and grew to be more mindful and weary in a world full of judgemental and inconsiderate people. I was once a weak and scared person and was afraid to stand up for myself now I have built a strong wall and have been not afraid to stand up for the things I feel are important to me. I feel I am a stronger and A more powerful being with a purpose to do better then I have been dealt and show people they are worth more then what others say about them. I never want to be brought down by pathetic and sick people in my life ever again.
I would love for you to read my poems and comment on them please do so as I am eager to hear it. Poetry is a form of art and it needs to be seen.
Connor Whyte Poems
As I Lay Dying
As I lay dying I breath my final Breaths, My last dying breath I call to you, I call to you in confusion, I am not what people think I am, I use this body as A disguise, My dreams are my cover to my confusion, I try and push my dreams down but it is just a replay of the things that I have done wrong. This substance I take to erase my thoughts are fading and to which I have grown used to, Use to the feeling, I am numb and my words seem untrue, Which is real I do not know, Is this life I am living just another excuse to fail, I have fallen we have all fallen, I push the meaning of existence, I push you like I have pushed away my real self.
Birthday I Wish Would Never Come
As the day goes by I get older and my mind grows heavy, Tomorrow I wish would never come as A year goes by I grow older and I become colder. My eyes have seen so much and more things I see as days go by I become older, I hate birthdays because no one shows anymore and no one wishes me well, Why care when no one cares anymore I have lost friends and days get longer. I wish my birthday would never come because I only get more depressed, And life just seem to press me, All I want is to be known again, I feel no comfort and I feel more death,40,000 people die every day how come I am not one of them, If I could take this burden away I would because I can't confess to my happiness, I feel so numb and life becomes a mess. Go away and feel death that I feel, Maybe if people would feel the way I do I would not feel alone, Nothing seems to level out only starts to slope and go down hill, Take one more pill to feel at ease living this life I live is just an excuse, I stand in the door way and people pass as I am invisible.
No Reason Anymore
My eyes never fill with tears as if the tear dots in my eyes were burnt and sealed up. My life gets more sad everyday, I feel I can not stay were I wish to be, The pill bottle sits next to my bed and I dream of taking them all to escape my sadness. My eyes burn but never seem to water I ask for help but my eyes burn hotter, One tear is all I ask for but it will never come, My emotions are scarred and all I can feel is sadness which turns to anger, I can't stand this unbearable place as my tears never escape.
Strength is built upon fear, What is there to fear when you have no strength, You can't carry on if your weak. Some were chose to win, to lose its fate or is it destiny? You choose where to begin. Time goes and you start to grow, Bad choices are made and you need to go.
The Cold Heart
Pushing and pushing can never stop the pushing, Thoughts and thoughts can never stop the thoughts, Worries and worries can never stop the worries, Doubts and doubts can never stop the doubts, When will this end climbing to the top just to get smacked down again,
Sitting here thinking of you leaving me breathless, My heart was once cold and never seemed to beat, Your kiss is electric kicking my heart as it beats to the feeling of your skin. Your eyes are the color of the sky when it turns blue, Your voice can sooth my soul and calm the ocean in my head, When I stand by you I feel I can do anything through you, When you say you love me it makes my head turn and my body feel numb, I will stay as you are the one who has stolen me away.
A Monster And A Revolver
Sitting in the cold night, Watching the moonlight waiting for the change of the monster to shift its form, Burning and aching as the form begins to shape. As it stands in the open with eyes red as the sun, It howls to the moon and cries in the night. Heat of the skin and fur drenched in blood, And rain, Quickly it moves to a person unaware, Making its move on the next prey it finds. A lonely man stands in the road eyes black as stone, Rain bounces of his dark rain coat. He is a easy target but is not alone.
Oh as I hate you I find myself in a deeper hole, Oh how I wish you were never here, Always wish I was never born as I am a waste of life and take up to much space, I hate you and pray that something bad happens. I hate the way I live I hate you, And I hate me, There is no point to this holiday when you feel no love, Empty and sad and so confused, I always ask myself what is wrong with me, Why do they never want much to do with me? I have come to realize there is no point in asking, I feel like laying down to die.
Evil That Dwells Within
I see faces that walk past me, And a shadow that stands beside me, I see you and the evil sees me. When I am alone the evil always calls to me, The evil whispers to me but only inside my head, The evil is always around me and influencing my hatred of others.
Lose Yourself In Music, Feel The Flow
Feel the beat of the intense music feel it melt your veins and burn your vision, Get lost into the sound of a million chores the sound of the the beat flowing through your veins making you feel invincible. A addiction strong enough to make an angel cry, Feel the song as it flows in and sets its course like a virus taking its host, Like a drug that puts you in A coma, Feel it make your blood boil.
Who I Am
I am someone who feels anger and hatred towards others that think high of themselves. I am who I am and I am proud to be who I am. I am someone who has done wrong out of anger and paid for it and in return was left with a broken heart. I am someone who appears to be kind but on the inside I am hurt and full of confusion. I am someone who does not trust anyone and will not be there to put myself out and help when I have been shunned, to many times have I been lied to and treated like I was a clown.
Make Things Right
Life. To You Mother
I have come to find myself through all these long years and with all the shed tears and with the anger I covered myself in to drown out reality and bringing up my insecurity. I have found that I am here for A reason to find all the great things I can in this world from a person who has greatly impacted me and brought the good out in me giving me life and reason to live. I have found that their is hope and it is been in front of me for a long time but was only a shadow when I was busy fight everything to get what I wanted. I have found that there is a purpose for us to live and to move on and change the bad that was once surrounding everything that was good.
The Beast Within
I feel I am stuck in a cage every now and then someone pokes me stirring up more rage being hurt and can't escape, Once I feel happy things don't stay, You didn't do this, You didn't do that, Grow up, I'm smarter than you, Do as I say, Shut your mouth or you will pay everything I do has to be my way. I close my
Who I Am
I am someone who feels anger and hatred towards others that think high of themselves.
I am who I am and I am proud to be who I am. I am someone who has done wrong out of anger and paid for it and in return was left with a broken heart.
I am someone who appears to be kind but on the inside I am hurt and full of confusion.
I am someone who does not trust anyone and will not be there to put myself out and help when I have been shunned, to many times have I been lied to and treated like I was a c