Biography of Courtney Helsel
There's tons of things I could say about myself. I have a pretty tough life; I mean it's not like I'm faced with cancer or anything, but I've been through some tough stuff. I usually write poetry when the emotions start setting in. Anyway, I'm 18 right now. I'm looking to attend a Univ in the fall & well I'm just me.
Courtney Helsel's Works:
But I've had published poetry.
Courtney Helsel Poems
Beauty Isn'T Everything
Hairspray, eyeliner, and cover-up There's always some reason To not feel good enough All smudged on to one pretty face
I'Ve Always Wondered
I've always wondered what you were thinking, When you look at me weeping I've always wondered if you could see, Everything that is inside and about me
& I write this poem for you Every letter in every word screams to be read Tempting to the eye, but yet you do not see The time it took to write this down
Just For You
You know it would be true If you had the chance to Kill me slowly just to watch me die You would stick a dagger right through my soul
Deny me my freedom Chain me to your bed tonight Rip apart my jeans To finally feel a painful thrill
Sometimes I wonder If missing you is the best thing I've got If knowing that you arent there But wishing you were
Justice is all that I'm after For every hateful thing you put me through And every sin that went unnoticed The truth must come out
Never saw myself falling Especially on my knees Even if all hope was gone I still never thought
& all of these thoughts Swarm through my head Each one more depressing than the last But through all of this
Today I fell hard I hit rock bottom It hurt me & tore my heart out
Slowly my thoughts turn to suicide, And I wish for a quick release, But instead a scream is all I confess. Over and over your words play in my head,
So write it on my epitaph 'And the last tear falls.' Under my unrighteous name, So I can feel the agony,
Lying To You
These shattering lies, They cover up my denial, And I don't think I can make it on my own, Please don't leave me
Once again you failed, At helping me mutilate my soul You made me believe in a vile love That I will never have.
Once again you failed,
At helping me mutilate my soul
You made me believe in a vile love
That I will never have.
Once again you accomplished
An irreparable decadence,
Of my own damnation
But yet somehow I feel a somber trance
And it's taking over my dreams