Ellen Shaw

What do I know?
I am but a mixed race child
They say I must be confused
Mustn't know who
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In the desert sand lifts
And swirls
A violent storm
Forming my name
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You broke my heart
the moment I saw tyres
flying over your sharp
soft sand dunes.
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The letters on the doormat glowed
blue in the darkness
and were cold under soft soled bare feet
I became a dragon in the hallway
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Flown away
and made this no ordinary day
a family in pieces
with no way to make sense of this.
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If you are going to leave me
Leave.
Completely.
Don't stay one kiss
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Today I knocked on water
to see if she would let me in
hoping she would send the weeds up to shake my hand
and wrap my wrists
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Star studded dark blue sky
A place to get lost
Or a place to stand out.
Winter's wind dancing by
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Satin and ribbons
Come loose, unwind
Tongue unknots
Can't stop.
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Wind swirls
Footsteps disappear
Walk across the desert
Full to the brim
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A hot coal burning red
sits neatly on your fleshy tongue
Kiss me
with all of your anger
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With the sand beneath my feet
I stand
Set free

Blue skies painted red
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If I caught you
At just the right moment
You'd be ready and waiting for me
If I could catch you
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Footsteps fall
along the path laid out
Eyes glaze over and spirit dulled.
Walk.
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Halo sits on your head
angel hair atop
you glow
words spill out jumbled and rushing
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lay me down
at the foot of a tree
on cold cold earth
lay me
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Walk on
and don't look back
break free
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Swimming, drowning, gasping, grasping
wanting, falling into
black pools of anger, rage and hurt
push me further
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Not who you want
Not who you see
Not how you think
I ought to be
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In six seconds
you had said all you wanted
to say,
in one breath
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