Biography of Ellie Watts
All my life I have wanted to be someone different. Someone who would stand out of the crowd. But, while with a few friends the other day, I realized that my life was much like that of other 15 year old teens. So, I'm just your average teen, whos into drugs and sex. Nothing more. Nothing less.
Ellie Watts Poems
The Wait Is Over
May tonight be the night that I finally die. I grab my razor and cut really deep.
My hand on the car door latch. I think of opening it and jumping out. My feet treading across a bridge. I think of pushing myself over the railing.
Why Is It So Hard?
Blood red tears fall onto a face numbed by emotion. How could you have done this to me? If I stare long enough into nothingness, I can pretend I'm in your arms.
as the photograph of him gets soaked by my tears thinking back about all those years now im all alone and sick of myslef ever since you left ive been such a wreck.
The New Me
I see the tears fall from your eyes once more. I will feel the regret in my heart forever.... I know you won't believe me this time. I know I took advantage of your trust
Now That You'Re Gone
You're the one i miss. I long for your kiss. I hate myself. I cry at night.
The End Of All Things
On the day and 'angel' falls from the heavens, it shall be over. The end of all that exists.
The blade going into my flesh as i fell the pain i long to feel i think of my mom and what she will think.
A Retired Angel
Once, long ago i was an angel. golden wings set on my back. a silver halo over my head. but those days are gone now.
Going To Hell
the knifes cold steel bites my wrist. i feel the icey touch of deaths kiss.blood flows and the wind blows. i see the ghosts of years past. my living life is not long to last.
if i let you you would make me detroy myself. in order to survive you, i must first survive myself. i can sink no further.
Have you ever felt like nobody cares? Like you are invisible? You could stand in the middle of a room, and nobody would notice.
I'm trapped in this hole. I dug and stuck myself in. Trying, trying to crawl out, I shout. My finger scrape the sides,
Will you help me, angel from the dark? wrap me in your black wings and take me away. Let's fly away, with me in your arms. Across the sky.
if i let you
you would make me detroy myself.
in order to survive you, i must first survive myself.
i can sink no further.
and i cannot forgive you.
theres no choice but to confront,
to engage you,
to erase you.
i've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain.