Pulsating jealousy, i guess that's what you call it
like trying to get rid of something unpleasant, you sweat, your heart beats
triple than usual.
A sudden moodswing from being ecstatic to extreme loathe
in between relief and nausea
become irrational for a moment and then laugh the next.
Then here comes denial, trying to consume jealousy but not completely,
its beautiful, and then you yearn for more.
It excites the imagination