I always thought I'd know what it would feel like,
I always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
Then you came and you changed my whole life,
You held my hand and said it would be alright.
Only when I bleed
Only when I cry
Only when I scream
Only when I die
They see me smile yet truly I weep,
When I lay my head to rest my tears begin to seep,
I'm dreaming in daybreak not night yet I do not sleep,
They may forget the pain but the scars I do keep.
I can cry and not be heard,
I can bleed and not be seen,
I can scream and not be noticed,
I can sleep and not have dreams.
Death cometh on swift wings
flee and dream for one more day
but fail in time and succumb to eternal rest
close your eyes and dream of a slumber
We can realign the stars if you just close your eyes.
We can watch the skies like we did before.
Happiness is when you wake up in the morning still thinking you are in a dream from the night before.
Happiness is when you breathe the perfume of flowers not noticing their backdropp against the luscious carpet of emerald meadows.
Out of the dark void I have come,
Into a land of light I yield,
Across the Great Plains I have strode,
Upon the back of a desert camel I have rode,
It's always hard to pick life up from where you left it.
To continue the thread, never-ending, never faltering.
Picking up the pieces of your existence from where they were left scattered on the floor.
Back to work, mundane and mind numbing. Beavering away like it's the only thing we can do with our time.
I can't keep living like this, waiting for the end.
There are people in my life that wanted more for me.
Wishing to see me make something of myself. To believe in better.
I can't keep hiding like this, behind a face that knows no pain.