Biography of Jodie Phillips
I am going through change right now. I am overcoming some painful childhood crap that I didn't even realize had affected me until I began analyzing my need to control. My 'Control Addiction' is having a negative impact on my marriage, my family, and my spirit.
Last year I had a blue butterfly with eyes in the wings tattooed on my upper back.
The butterfly is a symbol of change, growth, and joy. Life is an ever changing thing. If our minds and hearts are open, we can make new choices every day. We have the power to transform our own lives every moment of every day. Every choice we make, every change we allow enables us to grow into the person we are meant to and want to be. Through growth into our true selves, we can find true joy.
Blue is the color that speaks to me the most. It represents peace, calm, stability, security, and loyalty. These are attributes I want to remind myself of daily, striving to sincerely attain them.
Eyes are the gateway to the soul. They are also a symbol of our awareness. I enter this changing time in my life with full awareness, observing my surroundings and taking responsibility for my choices.
Jodie Phillips Poems
Who Can I Trust? (1989)
Who can I trust with my deepest secrets? Who can I trust when my world falls apart? When everyone's lying and deceiving Who can i trust with my heart?
I'M Back! (2007)
Out of the darkness Out of the pain Out of the fog Out of the rain
Go Ahead And Run (1989)
When times get rough He says be tough - Don't cry, control yourself, Put hate upon the shelf.
Get Over It (1989)
I wish I knew What I could do to repay this debt Because the feelings
Getting To Know Me (2007)
I think I am loved And then I think not I hide my true feelings And then feel distraught
I Am My Own Hero (2007)
Who needs a hero? Not I, I say. I used to think so I know better today!
Paul's Wall (2007)
His Soul filled with hatred, consumed with rage Relationships were broken He chose to withdrawal and just disengage A wall built of words unspoken
I sit dressed in white Beneath the black light Waiting for his command
I want to forgive her, but it hurts so much I want to feel better, forgetting their touch Forgive and forget are two different things I want to try both and see what it brings
My body is sore He'll always want more I'm crying inside Emotions are fried
Vicious Circle (1989)
I see you think that I don't care, That hate surrounds you everywhere. You were wrong until today, You've got to learn: watch what you say.
I needed to be needed, babe, I wish that you could see. I needed to be needed Yet I needed to be free.
Why War? (1990)
How many days till the end will come And our world will go to hell? A lot of people take a guess, But none can really tell.
Swords Can'T Cry (1991)
I was forced to fight In someone else's war. He held to me tight And made me kill some more.
Go Ahead And Run (1989)
When times get rough
He says be tough -
Don't cry, control yourself,
Put hate upon the shelf.
If this is so, why can daddy run?
If there's a battle he hasn't won,
Why can daddy run?