Biography of Joyleen Heneker
For most my life i have faught what i thought was a loosing battle with anorexia/bulimia and suicidal thoughts and commited several times. My poems are based on some of my experiences, times when i needed to escape, etc. I refer to a Name called Bella alot in my poems, Bella is what i had named my Eating disorder> Bella to me was a powerfull name.
Sorry if you find that some of my poems are explicit but these poems do not get any more real then what they are. Please i would love to hear what you think as i generally do not share these with no one, But one day would love to write a book based on my battle with it all, and my poems also. THank you for taking your time in reading them
Joyleen Heneker's Works:
None, Its my dream to though
Joyleen Heneker Poems
Im Standing There All Alone
Im standing there all alone Darkness surrounds me I feel like im chocking Hands around my neck
I’ve seen people die Of what’s killing me I’ve seen people cry For what’s taking my life
Mirror mirror what do u see A big fat body gleaming at me Take away my big fat hips These flabby arms
Hate hate hate This is my debate I hate a lot of things I hate the way they look at me
Why do we still feel guilty? When you know deep down you have made the right choices! Why do you ache so badly still?
Say Some Thing
Why doesn’t any one reach out Why does it feel every time I breath It feels like my last breathe Why do I sit there screaming in my head
You are my star You light up a room Your warm smiles Comforting hugs
Why does this happen to me Or am I questioning my sanity? My brain is running over time’ The darkness empowers me
Standing in a corner Feeling cold and lone Nothing else surrounds me Darkness is all around me
You try to be proud Of who you’ve become Of the things you’ve achieved And things you’ve done
Crying For Help From My Inner Child
Mummy Mummy Why are they all so mean? For being myself or whom I could be I sit in the corner
I don’t want to be labeled Don’t want to me judged Don’t want to be ugly nor fat
Confusion is my state of mind Locked into the darker side I fear all these things I fear for not belonging
What Is Life Worth
What is life worth to some one? What does it mean to live life? Is life when you live it?
What Is Life Worth
What is life worth to some one?
What does it mean to live life?
Is life when you live it?
Or maybe life is when it’s full of devotion, honor, and happiness?
Is life when you’re full of love?
and when your loved back