You know, when I am around you, I am starkly aware that I don’t understand all of my feelings.
[or how to express my fearful thoughts]
I do not know how to explain this to you.
[and I am afraid that if I do, you will laugh at me- or worse- ignore me.]
So I think the best thing for me to do is to stop talking to you.
[it is the best thing]
This will cause my uncertainty to disappear.
[and give me stability]
After all, I am certain that not talking would be easier than working it out