Ezra Lawhn Poems

I wanted to be gifted
But even if the stars shifted
I wouldn't even be a contender
Feels like I'm more of a pretender
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You matter beyond what you can do
You matter as much as them
You deserve the respect that you're due
You, they shouldn't condemn
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"You must be crazy
Even though not too long ago you were just lazy
You can't speak or think, but boy does your mouth run
Anxiety registers as a blip when you're having this much fun
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I felt strange
In some ways, I always knew
I guess understanding is a change
And I can't imagine what it's like for you
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I am anger and rage
I am kindness and contentedness
I am a fighter
I am a lover
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I'm seeing the white spots again
I have headaches even more now
My head is racing
My heart is hammering and pulsing with fear
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Why do we run
Is it for fitness
Is it to move towards something
If so to what
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I grow older with each passing day
Time spins on the dial around and around
If I ever wished to go back
I could only do so in my memories which are fragmented and ripped at the seams
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Who's more 'damaged'
Who can we blame
I'm surprised we haven't managed
To already throw shame
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It is as though I see real stars when I look upon those on my feet
The rainbow flags rest above flying probably lower than they ever should
The still-beating heart lies above that
The golden arrows upon what must be the beginning of my leg shaking with their rapid movements
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