Rowence Mateo

Anger - Poem by Rowence Mateo

Relationship sabbatical let loose a molecular free radical
A convalent bond one short of a pair
It's so unfair, so much hurt to bear
He's a tea bag in hot water
True flavor is deadbeat father
This reason then that reason then this reason here
Bullshit and 'all about you shit' is all I hear
Keep your alligator tears, your selfishness is you being sincere. Fucking with my head has become your career.
And that sincerity, twisting, trying to influence my mentality
Mortal kombat scorpion fatality
Yelling 'get over here' instilling fear
As you smoke more shit, down another bottle of belvedere.
Yeah, yeah
I dont want him to come back to me
Doesn't see the real me
Only God can judge me
Bottom line he left behind a broken family
And here I am
I'm supposed to work on me
Hormonal dumps, depression and anxiety
But how do I take advantage of this time
With baby Mia always cryin
I'm drained, depleted of energy
She sucks my milk every hour, I'm always so dizzy not just physically but mentally and emotionally
I can't sleep, doin so much on my own
My life a foggy hazy monotone
Feeling like I'm Japan being terrorized by the Taliban
Take another miligram of ativan
So I can try to stand
Back up and re-examine my Life
I can learn to communicate not just fight or flight
Because then I lose sight of the light at end of the tunnel
Gotta funnel my shit get hold of my emotions
Fucking hope these meds and therapy will be my magic potion
If i succumb to his games i become numb, dumb to what is yet to come, my existence just a mediocre medium
I gotta see me as a better person, a better woman and mother
Show my kids there is no other
Way, dont show em i suffer, dont let them wonder, all we need is the 3 of us together team super mom and super daughters

Topic(s) of this poem: independent, love, mom, mother, mother daughter, relationships, single, female, empowerment, anger

Form: Free Verse

Comments about Anger by Rowence Mateo

  • Daniel M. (8/25/2018 11:37:00 PM)

    Ro...I hope you're well. I worked with you a long time ago at that kern co. pris. we became kinda close. I knew you were going thru some back then.really miss our talks. (Report)Reply

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  • Jazib KamalviJazib Kamalvi (6/22/2017 2:04:00 PM)

    Write comment. A good poem on relations. Thanks (Report)Reply

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Poem Submitted: Thursday, June 22, 2017

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