Amanda Saveley

Rookie (December 29,1987 / Omaha, Nebraska)

Another Dose Of Emotional Morphine - Poem by Amanda Saveley

Should I even bother?
Does it really matter?
Am I sitting here waiting
For something that will never come?

Did I delude myself
Into thinking too much?
Into thinking you'd stay?
Assume you won't go away?

It was my mistake.

Well this is not for real
Afraid to feel
I just hit the floor
Don't ask for more
I'm wasting my time
I'm wasting my time
You can't stop the feeling
And there's no reason
Let's make the call
And take it all again

I got so far
And got so low
It's getting hard
To let you go
But soon I must
Why, I don't know
You're getting too close
I'm starting to show

Layers are peeling
I'm fading away
I refuse to fall backwards
I don't want to delay
So if you must hurt me
Please hurt me today
I knew from beginning
It's always this way

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

And I gotta let you know
I just gotta let you go
Before we tear ourselves apart
Don't wanna tear away your heart

See you waiting
Lonesome, lonely
See you waiting
I see you waiting

Breaks my heart to see you cry
It breaks my heart to watch us die
I know that I should wonder why
But I can't ever wonder why
No, can't take time to say goodbye
I'd stick around to live this lie

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

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Comments about Another Dose Of Emotional Morphine by Amanda Saveley

  • (10/16/2007 7:29:00 PM)

    Hi Amanda.

    First up sincere apologies for assuming 'twas your vote.

    I have read a few of your works, [many to go! ], & I really enjoy the straight forward style you write with. You are a very emotional poet.

    I liked this one; loved the 'radiohead' lyrics you slipped in there, this added a really personal affect; as though the song was integral to this relationship.

    Thanks for sharing Amanda,

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Poem Submitted: Friday, October 13, 2006

Poem Edited: Saturday, October 16, 2010

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