Apologies Poem by Gracelyn Gomez

You and I are always near,
Never far from one another.
Excitement swells at karate,
You brighten my week with your smile.
We don't need words; our silence speaks—
Yet I wish I had the courage to say
How I truly feel.

Insecurity grips me,
So I distance myself,
Feeling I can never shine as bright as you,
Your angelic light overwhelming.
I watch you closely,
Yet I pull away,
Afraid to kill the silence
That keeps us apart.

I ran from you when you got close
Your smile faded
And I wish I could take it back.
Since then, you haven't smiled as much.
Was it me? Did I ruin this?
As the ceremony approaches,
I prepare to break the silence.
I see your car in the lot,
My heart races with anxious thoughts.
When I walk in and see you smile,
It fills me with hope.

But then you look so down.
What's wrong? My heart stops
As you walk toward me,
My heart bursts when you walk past.
I look back, watching you leave,
My own sadness surging.
I spent the night with you on my mind,
Eyes swollen with unshed tears,
Drained from words left unspoken,
My heart aching for you.

January brings a heaviness;
I had no idea that was our last encounter.
I can't change how I was—
Maybe it was just me.
I felt this way for you,
But I'll never know if you felt it too.
Silence enveloped us,
And now we're lost to each other,
Wishing we could have ended differently—
With honesty and open hearts.

I hope we can talk someday;
It wasn't the right time,
But maybe next time,
My voice will finally be heard.
And so, I wait for you.

My Apologies