Clueless Poem by Bishnupada Sethi

Mid in the night
When none was around
The silence was ruling absolutely
And my door was closed.

I felt I was struggling to escape
As I had been held by someone very tight.
My body had a feeling stone like.
I needed to breathe.
Despite my last efforts to wriggle out
He didn't let me go.
Only I wished if there was someone
Who could rush in to help me out
But I could hardly shout.

Shivering and sweating
With very high pulse rate
I was waiting to see
If my end was nearing
While suddenly I could rise up
To find none around
I was lying cool.
Certain eerie emptiness was only prevailing.

What was it?
Who was he?
Could it be real?
Powerful no less than a monster
Or a ghost I had been longing to see!

Or is it my accumulated fear
Hidden somewhere deep inside.
What could my fear be-
Loss of loved ones?
Loss of job, food, other basics?
Loss of honour, esteem, freedom?
Loss of youth, health or life
Or something very valued
I am not aware of
Though I lose something everyday.

I ponder-
What could be my status at that time
When I become nothing
With no body, no name
Completely reduced beyond ashes.
There'll be nothing to shed.
Whether I'll still fear from something

I am clueless
As I was deeply asleep
A while ago
Still I was in some noose
Not being in the control of my body.