Why did he hurt me so bad? ,
now i am forever to be sad.
Content used to be my middle name,
Now i look at myself in shame.
I should have never gotten into that situation,
but there was no way out to that relation.
Was it my fault or was it his? ,
I may not know,
but it is the was it is.
I seem to be leaning more towards me,
but maybe i just can't see
Why does it have to be like this?
I should have known from the very first kiss
that he would have gotten to others.
Maybe not my sisters and brothers,
but my friends.
I hope.. I hope i can make amends,
but i am scared.
I'd rather rip out my hair
strand by strand
until i couldn't feel my hands.
Me and the others could have told,
but the threats we could no longer hold
in our grasp.
Like it just fell and collapsed.
LiFeS A bItCh,
a never ending itch.
I just don't understand.
As i sit here wearing an armband
that says hope,
I laugh because all I can do is mope.
If we told, would things get better?
Would the weight be lifted like a feather?
Is it my fault for not saying it?
the thought of his ear shattering voice
trembling beneath my skin.
I want to,
but i don't want to sin.
He WILL be leaving my life
one way or another.
Even if it involves a knife.
I can't stand it anymore.
I no longer want to be in this war.
I'll never fail to try,
and i wont lie.
I'm ending this thing.
even if it means ending
my own life! !
I loved you,
What is wrong with me?
Why do i think it's my fault?