My Inner Thoughts... Poem by Felix Lugo

All this time I've been the fool. Thinking someone like you would ever be interested in me.
Somewhere and somehow I thought there was a chance.
I believed. I had faith.
I thought anything was possible.
Especially when you feel that feeling inside you can't explain.
I'm weak for you and I don't know how to walk away from being frozen.
Such a short time but it felt like a life time together.
Many people advice me to not even try.
I did.
Some asked if I regret it all. The effort. The time. The trip.
While I am sad and at given nights cry with mixed emotions.
You're smiling. Happy. At ease.
I used to believe but now I have trouble believing in me.
So I say. Live your best life.
I'm not perfect.
But standing next to you made me feel like my life was complete.
So I kissed you only in my thoughts. (not on the cheek) It felt so real.
Sadly I know as much as I would like us to be. Your thoughts and vision of a love is not within me.