Saisha Meyer Poems

sometimes I feel as if no one sees me
as if no one knows I am there
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Darkness surrounds me and pain is all i feel
its like im drowning in this air that i breathe and i ask is any of it real?
my emotions overcome me so i cut and dont feel the pain
its the storm of my life and my tears are the rain.
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i hide my hands
so no one even you could see
blood, tears, and lost hopes are stained on my skin
guilt of being a failure burns holes through me
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my life is evil and will turn you upside down
grab you by the arms and toss you around
mess yours up and make you cry
give you the choice and the need to die
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why dodes bad things always have to happen when i finally become happy?
why are my my thoughts of suicide gettin to the point where i cant control them anymore?
why everytime i get depressed i always turn to a blade or a gun?
why is it that i am actually looking forward to my next cut?
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