What If Poem by Adi Shtainshneed

What if...

What if I had concealed myself and had not revealed?
What if I had not disclosed some information?
What if I had held back my emotions for some time?
What if I had not said 'I love you' right away and had waited for a while?
What if I had not been opened up about my truth?
What if I had been mysterious and shady?
What if I had been more reserved around him?
What if I had portrayed myself just as he might have imagined me?
What if I had been reluctant to encounter him on daily basis?
What if I had ignored him or had not taken on his calls?
What if I had sided with all of his believes, thoughts, and statements?
What if I had woken up on the right side of the bed?
What if I had been silent and unresponsive during his numerous, repetitive exhortations and lectures regarding me?
What if I had not allowed various issues to come between us?
What if I had taken upon me to obey him?
What if I had not nourished or pampered him in any way?
What if I had made the sun come up?
What if I had accepted his whims and tantrums?
What if I had not quarreled with him?
What if I had smiled constantly and not even once cried?
What if I had not been reckless and had acted politely?
What if I had remained the same as I had been on our first meeting?
Would he have loved me back and would he have been mine for all eternity?