What To Do? ? Poem by diara armstead

its hard so hard when your heart stay in such distance
its so easy to pull someone in and like them while being away from that one you love
it breaks my heart how we dont speak but yet we claim our love is deep
i just met her nd i think i like her
late nights something aint rite as i tossed and turned
heartaching pain at the thought of the one i love
time and time again dey say i deserve better
i need someone closer
she makes me laugh with her many stories
babyface draws me in and when i look into those eye
her eyes are dreamy capturin i get lost in them
her beauty is jus as geniune respectful woman is she
she never tells me how she feels bout our distant love affair
i continue to do me to the fullest
when im with her i feel lik im where im suppose to be
share alot in common only difference
be she can tawk fah days unlik me i sit back and analyize what goes on around me
how we never met face to face over the phone and text is how we connect
made it through a year but something jus aint right
deep inside i cry i beat myself up
i kant take this pain much more
and when she is around it hurts even more
how i just want to move on without a single itz over
stressed is i mad at how they kall her baby
not putting my feelings into consideration half the time
she once told me she put others on hold bekuz of me
insulted affend not sure if this is worth it
i doubt our love
what should i do leav the one i love for someone i like soon hope to fall in love with her
bekuz this distant love aint right this pain is slowly killin me
deep inside im fallin into millions billions of piece lik shattered glass
the pain the anger the frustration
the depression the empitness the confusion
what next what to do
she keepz me calm not worried bout any problems
my fambam loves her she enjoys bein around us
the laughter the happiness the enjoyment
the comfort the connections
age aint nun but a number but i perfer sum one closer to my age
what to do im stuck im confused im lost i kant have both or kan i
who to choose someone i can see from time to time or someone i love and cant see
why? ? ?