When Crystal Teardrops Fall From My Eyes. Poem by Weeping Angel Lost in The Darkness

When crystal teardrops fall from my eyes.
No turning back now
I hold my soul in my hands
Ready to hand it over to the demons that await me in every corner
The darkness of the world overwhelms me
My innocence taken in one swift fluid motion
I pull out the blade
It’s icy edge cuts easily
Takes away my life source
I welcome the pain
The blood,
the surrender,
the darkness...
The hospital smells invade my nostrils
I groan and push away the curtain of pain
I failed
I live
I cry
I lost
He won
I lost
I live
I failed
I lie on the cold floor
the white walls
so soft
like pillows
I can’t hurt myself here
people care about me
they say ‘I’m special’
but they don’t mean it
They never will
they just want to see me fail,
to fall
they just want to see me break.

LCS