Biography of Ruby Green
People say i am very MORBID but it doesn't bother me cause it's proably true and people also tell me i look like am goth or punk and ask me why I`m like this and i tell them cause I can be, I truly think im like this because when I was 9 my dad died and that reallly hurt. Then after my dad died my mom started drinking so me n my brothers and sisters went into foster care for about 10 months. Then we got to go back to our mom but then she stared doing crack and not coming home for weeks and when i was about 10 or 11 i was taking care of 3 newborn babys while taking care of my lil sister and 2 younger brothers. I cooked for them, made sure they got to school and gave them baths and other stuff like a mother would do. I remember i used to get up in the middle of the night to take care of my niece n 2 younger brothers and because of my mom i had to miss 2 months of grade 6 just so i could be a mother to my siblings. Then my school called CFS and whenever my mom would come back home to change her clothes and stuff i would run away from her and one night I took off from her and called the cops and they took me home but I told them that i didnt wanna go back their cause i was scared she was gonna beat me up, cause she did before for no god dam reason. I also told them that there was nood food in the fridge and she was never home, so they went in and talked to her and checked the fridge and seen there was no food in their so they phoned CFS and i went to my aunties and the next day my mom came over and she beat the shiiittt out of me and said its my fault that my brothers n sister are in CFS so i ran away from their n CFS for 2 months then i turned my self in. While i was in CFS I had visits with my mom i went to a few of them and she tryed to apologize to me so many times i would just ignore her. In january of 2006 she went into treatment until may i think then she just left cause she said she was getting harrassed by people and and when i thought everything was going to go back to normal she stared doing crack again but now i just dont give a fuck. I think i am so dark to because i seen someone get killed when i was coming home from a friends house one time. Last year i was told that i have PTSD so they put me on prozac and i was in and out of the hospital so many times cause i tried to kill myself but i guess now im pretty okaii. so yeah thats like part of my screwed life.
Ruby Green Poems
Have You Ever
Have you ever lived my life, Have you ever spent one day in my shoes, If not why do you judge me as you do.
I seen her face, So beautiful never thought I'd ever fing an angel like her. She had these gorgeous brown eyes
Violated and exploited.. Left alone and cold Hurt by the person you Thought you could trust.
Watching You Just sit there while you wast away. It Kills me inside to know i atctually cared. I wish i could just make you feel the pain you caused me. Soo Now I am standing over you with the most hardest decision in my life.
Sitting alone. Looking in the mirror. Thinking of what i wish i could be. I wish i wasnt so broken.
hoplessly alone. Starving for your attention. But as you watch me die. You wonder what could be wrong.
Suicide whispering in your ear, Your heart beat is racing at the speed of light, What will you do, what will you choose. Will you meet your fate and dance with faith,
lonliness and pain is what i feel, hate and Confusion is what i see, Love and happiness is what i need, Hate and death is crested in my mind,
Accuse me of lying, when it was you who hid the truth, Accuse me of running away,
You hear her screamz, You hear her cries, as you watch the tearz of blood, roll down her cheekz,
Underneath my exterior, Underneath my clothes, Underneath my words, A specail person grows.
Death Is Here
Death is just a second away blood drippin on the floor while your lyin there slowly slippin away slippin away from the
Im lyin in my lonely dark room Sittin on the bed With a razorblade in my hand while I slowly run it down my wristz
Screamin is all I hear,
Heartaches is all I fear,
Blood is all smeared,
Cryin is all I see,
Broken bones and
broken hearts is what I feel,
Broken homes and
broken famlies is what I have,
love is what I need,
but it seems it all juss slips away while I drift away.