Biography of Samantha White
I am Samantha, a 14 year old girl lost in a world where I feel like no one understands me. I don't even understand myself all the time. Writing poetry is one of the few things keeping me alive. I feel I can only fully express myself through poetry. If anyone wants to talk to me, email me any time. I have been through depression, a suicide attempt, am struggling with an eating disorder, and cut sometimes.
Samantha White Poems
I hate you because you're taking over me, but I love you 'cause you're making me the girl I want to be. Why do I love you when all you do is put me down? Making me starve 'till I fit into the smallest gown.
Before now I had never really thought about my weight, but now the scale is my worst enemy. Food is a thing I have begun to hate; I can't ever be thin enough.
Spinning, swirling, lost in confusion, not even knowing what I am thinking. Falling, crying, bleeding, dying, Into this pit of depression I'm slowly sinking.
No one understands the perfection I seek, the reflection I see everyday. No one hears the words I speak, my fear of how much I weigh.
O Ana, my angel, lead me to perfection. Please help me to no longer, Fear my reflection.
All these voices in my head, Please make them stop I wish I was dead. The beat of my black heart is slowly ceasing; my will to live is slowly decreasing.
Now You Are Gone
Sitting in the rain with my head on your shoulder, your arm around me spreading warmth through my whole body, Now that you are gone will you remember me? Or am I just some memory you will put aside?
Die From Love
Why can't you understand? Why can't you see? I need you forever, here with me.
My soul has been torn violently apart, my heart ripped out and shattered. I impatiently wait till from life I depart, the pieces of my heart are forever scattered.
Never Good Enough (For Myself)
Fading from reality to a world all my own, to a side of me I've never shown. Everyone sees a girl, happy and free, but it is a useless girl that I see.
Crying, screaming, Bleeding, Dreaming. Inside dying, to the world, lying.
A broken girl not knowing what to do, That was that I was before I met you. But you made me whole, set me free, Free from the pain taking over me.
As I look at this world, all I see is darkness. My world has turned completely black now all I know is depression.
Teardrops fall like rain from the sky, from the blue eyes of this forgotten girl. Her day had started full of light and happiness, but now is filled with hate and loneliness.
Not A Normal Girl
On the outside I may seem like a normal teenage girl,
but bottled up inside of me is a feeling of helplessness.
I feel such a great need for self-destruction,
and I don’t understand these feelings at all.
Through my eyes I see a bright world where darkness only sometimes dwells,
but in my mind is a whole new world.
There is a whole different world where it’s just me alone,
And in this world only darkness dwells.
Am I crazy? Am I insane?