Sarah matthews

Suicide isn't fun,
so don't try it.

Suicide isn't quick,
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Suicide is deadly,
so don't flirt with it

Suicide is sneaky,
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Why is everything so confusing? Can I be out of my mind?
It's a cold night, I'm sitting here on the porch, alone
in the dark. Thinking, thinking about what we could
have been and what I should've done to keep you.
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It wasn't supposed to hurt
it wasn't supposed to end
It wasn't your fault
I take all the blame
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The pain you caused me hurt worse then when Athena starts a war..
The things you and me had together were better then anything Aphrodite could give...
Not even Apollo could heal these wounds...
Some were to belive that Ares would be the one who started this war,
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Loyalty is when he betrays you many times, but you stay with him.
Its when you would bleed for him just to show him your worthy of his trust
It's when thigns are all wrong for him but you stay and show him it'll be ok.
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She's amazing
She knows what to say and do,
If your in pain she knew how to take it away
The words she said made everything ok
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Teenage years are full of those stupid little tears. Those stupid little tears that someday you will look back upon them and laugh............
But isn't it true that when you look upon the good times you will cry?
What could you have done? What should you have done? Those questions ringing in your ear. What can I do better but better yet think of this question......... What would you do if you knew you could never fail?
Things in this world are full of those stupid little tears but in the end you realize those tears will get you no where but right where you where before you were crying. Seal your eyes shut, let no more tears come, but then again open your eyes and then tears pour out and then you go back to where you were before. If your eyes are open you know whats coming and you can try and prevent it or you can embrace it. You know theres no way in stopping it. After you cry you can move on and cope with it. If your eyes are shut then you have no way of knowing what's coming. No way of finding a way to deal with it.
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Things dont ever last like there supposed to
Maybe we live in a backwards world
Where things go the opposite way you want them to.
Maybe things were not supposed to work out between us.
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A love I dont deserve
A person who loves me for the wrong reasons
I was the cause of the pain so many times, but yet you return?
Why?
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Why can he yell and scream and hurt me and get away with it?
It's time that you saw what you do to me...

The screaming i can no longer take,
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The distance is closing
and the pain is growing,
But I wouldnt trade it for anything,
Things have changed and i need to also.
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They are always there for you,
weather you wnat them to or not.
They are out there serving their country,
not able to come home and see their familys.
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Your the one who makes me smile with the mere thought of you holding me
I love your goofy faces
I love your touch
I love your voice
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It scares me how much i love you
It scares me
I love you
But when theres over 500 miles between
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Watching the clouds go by
Finally understanding that I don't need to
Everything that makes sense
Doesn't
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Theres a guy out there for everyone
Not everyone finds him
When they do they work hard to keep him
You shouldnt have to work hard to keep him
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Cuts are,
painful and never quick.

Cuts are,
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Never again will I doubt anything,
because now knowing that once they're gone,
they're not coming back.
As my family falls apart one by one,
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always alone.never there, story of my life.
Never able to help, always hurting, never did see why i was
so bad to be around. Never did understnad how he could
stand there and just let me drown in pain and not able to do anythin but lay there.
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