Shilesha Johnson Poems

This break was suppose to be something that made me see what life was like without you
And the only way for that to happen is for me to completely loose you
For me to go days without hearing your voice
For us to want to speak but telling ourselves we have no choice
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I want so badly to pick up the phone
Call you and wish you a happy birthday on my own
Without anyone giving you my message
Just want you to see that somehow you’re still a blessing
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i have so much on my mind that my head hurts
i try to change my thoughts but nothing works
i just want to stop being so confused
i want for me to want only you
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You feel like you have no one in this world
Like you are all alone
Like no one can understand
How you feel inside
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You know how you always have that one regret
Or that hope for something that didn’t happen yet
Or that one girl
That you made your world
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Being with you was never a walk in the park
I spent less time in the light
than I did in the dark
you kept me feeling uneasy and hurting
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Sometimes he isn't a thought
until he pops up on my phone
But he's not the one I'm yearning for
When I'm stuck here all alone
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I look around and see what my life could've been
So proud of who I am now
and everything I represent
I complain about things that could be worst
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I didn't want to go back to
The same thing that made me walk away
You tried to plead your case to get me to stay
After telling you no, and giving it more thought
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Nobody takes the time out to understand
All people want is to be supplied with demand
When things are more convenient
Infesting my heart with lies that it believes in
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