Tony Kavuoti Poems

That is, For better and worse or both, how we felt before birth, intra uterusly, as an infant, as a child are the impressions we carry for the rest of our life. Blessed our those that go through life with this tale wind. But the vast majority of of us have a headwind, dealing with so called loved ones hostel, and ambiguous attitudes right from the start. The damage is made and set for life. Denial of this only makes for a life of distortions and illusions that is a life of denial. We end up believing we are in love with our distortions. We destroy each other by trying to make our distortions work. We go to work for our distortions, we marry our distortions, we idealize are distortions. That is why we self-destruct. That is why you have so many symptoms. That is why you're depressed. Is why you drink so much. Is why you are on medications. That is why you are so irritated. That is why you want so much materialistically, in a vain attempt to fill is void. But we want to be with someone that loves us for us, as we really are, who excepts us when we are in our real emotional states. Think about that, how real that is. We need to be with Someone that loves us not for what we project which takes constant effort, which is not the self but an effort of the self; to flourish we need someone that sees us, that except that cherishes us for how we really are, in our default mold, which is our early impressions. Which for most of us is not a pretty picture. The active persona that we cultivate later in life is our representative. The more our representative represents us, and not our ideal self, the more real satisfaction we will experience. It takes wisdom, intellect, and a deep desire to live your life to except this. Your life could seem to be very successful, very interesting but if it is not your life, you have no real life. First we have to see ourselves. We cannot see our own eyes in our own face. So we need to be around people that really love us for us.

A Big house can not make up for lack of authenticity.
Sex all the time, will not make up for lack of authenticity.
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Only perpetrators think them selves queen or king, they kill you and have other believe you are mean,
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Real emotion is the oxygen for which we breathed, the more it is real the more we grow, the more you let illusions go. Into the light of real peace, only the living know this feast.
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If you have other people take all the blame for your problems, issues, emotional storms, and they take the blame only for your lack of consciousness of the demons you have, you are a bridge of sorrow passing the family pain and ignorance to your children, you are too ignorant to see the pain, face the pain and deal with it, you unknowingly past it to your children, increase it, to the next generation, you are lazy, dumb, a curse. I do not want anything to do with any of you.
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If you do not have any problems, issues, emotional storms, if you only see what is good for you now, you are a bridge of sorrow passing the family pain and ignorance to your children, you are too ignorant to see the pain, face the pain and deal with it, you unknowingly past it to your children, increase it, to the next generation, you are lazy, dumb, a curse. I do not want anything to do with any of you.
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You help others when you face your pain. You get by the storm when you except and deal with its force. Everything grows this way. If you want fertility without a rain you are a desert, a desolation, you only live a marginal life, all in your orbit enact your strife until they see through your fake and shallow personality.
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When you die, where do you think your emotions will go. If you do not face them, deal with them here, just be ready to deal with them very more intensely after this life.
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When you love, when you give because you want to, not because you have to, that is love; that is real, its distortion is ego. The ego is a construct born from our immature but vital depths, a collative distortion gone mad, it needs to be updated, it is no more the center of us than the earth is the center of our solar system, if you do not swear by it and our collative ways of overly identifying with it and exploiting yours and others you will be banished as a heretic.
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Some are born into an environment that cherishes and nurtures their unfolding individuality enough where they are able to cultivate the capacity, faculty, the facility to be objective enough to see it is not them but the ignorance of others lack of God that acts out, that allows evil to have rain, they do not take others satinizing them personally, they find their way back on course, back to the path, back to God.
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