Barlot ... Poems

There are days I wish I were born without confidence
Hoping there will be nothing to lose
When it's blatantly rubbed in my chest
That I'm nothing more than second best...to the people I choose to admire.
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My essence is fading
Christianity's the bleach
The second I left Murder Beach...I knew it would happen
But it happened so fast-
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We can stop it if I cared
But frankly I’m just too tired these days
As I sit trapped in a Valium haze
Where did they go?
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Half of my heart is a question mark
Ending the sentence of your tyrrany
Threatening to set me free-
More like handing over a golden ticket.
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You can't keep running away
From the things you can't control
Somewhere new becomes the oasis
When Murder Beach took its toll.
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There's no feeling in my body
But there's anger in my soul
Where's my self control?
In the trash with everything that used to matter.
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It's in times like these when I wish I were special
Just so there will be an excuse to be this happy,
But is it really unfortunate to recognize a feeling
And have legitimate thoughts?
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If a cow were about to eat me
As cows sometime can
I don't believe he'd take the time
To find that I'm vegan.
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I am matter
But I don't matter
Just use me up and go.
I'm happy to please
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So you're the one in the back
Whispering preconceived death wishes from my lips
Expecting pity
But getting nothing from me
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