Estefano Molina

As I sit here
in this desk
I'm here but not here
People come in and out
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I have no dining table
no need for one
I eat on my only piece of furniture
I sleep on it as well
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My stomach is full once more
I offered a stranger a drink
he deserved it
After a bottle of Tequila he was no stranger
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I rest my head on the ground
Hypnotized by the blades of a ceiling fan
Hollow silence, a deafening sound
Escaping this life within a fantasy I ran
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Today I 'am forced to write
this paper listens
better than people
Because today remembers yesterday
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It was an unusually cool morning
We walked on the road's shoulder
Heavy bags on our backs
I followed close behind
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Someone is knocking at the door
I'm not gonna open it
their is a long pause
it begins again
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I wrote you a letter
and my words were confused
9 pages of thoughts
worthless to you
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I watched it go up slowly
zig-zagging and circling the pole
searching for food maybe
it was a small fire ant
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Here is another thought
I wrote it at work
Because I didn't bring lunch
Had some free time
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I woke up this morning
because I decided to open my eyes
Well, I had to go to work
to provide
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She wrapped her arms around me
pulled me closer to her warmth
as dark as that room was
she was still bright
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It was late in the summer
I had been around town and back
I knew my ways
wasn't happy
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I worked hard for her
I was only 5 when I began training
but tried her even before then
blood, sweat and tears
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Today I was asked
'What is happiness to you? '
I opened my mouth
but not a sound was made
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I left them
Left it all behind me
I abandoned my philosophy
my beliefs, hopes and dreams
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Today is your birthday
haven't seen or heard from you
I still see you yellow
too bright for me to stare at directly
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I open the door
all the lights are off
the only sound is behind the walls
its the neighbors again
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I was full of anger the other day
so I decided to decorate my apartment
A lady friend seemed to notice my décor
she said 'Looks nice'
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I've known for sometime
I could see it coming
and you can only delay these things
but no matter what, it's coming
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