Jessy Liz Poems

Back against a wall I once leaned on in leisure,

I've shut myself up tight from what once brought me pleasure.
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She lets her head fall back on the merry-go-round

Full lungs scream but there is no sound
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Here I go making a mess again..
One I don't know I'm strong enough to clean up.
I need a new town, a new life, a new drug.
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I wish I could put every lonely moment on paper..
Gather up all the excess in my thought process and put it in a heavy envelope..
Enough to weigh it down so it won't fall open again.
I wish it was enough to sound out the words that tell the story of this last year,
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I feel the undertow
I feel the pull
It's sweeping up in currents
And grasping circles
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Dear, you know I'd never lie
But this silence is offensive
And while I'm living just to die
It's not quite what I expected
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Lips, swollen from crying..
They'd say they want to scream and want to fight
But they'd be lying.
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I'm in and out
I'm up again
God damn your lies
And damn my sins
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I pray for sleep,
for my mind to keep
in one direction.
But the wind it blows,
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The realization sinks deeper than any burn by fire or worse.
And I'm a terrible liar- crushed near death by this avid curse.
Haunted by the shaking decision that seems to have been made
I'm stunned beyond a coming down into the bed I've laid.
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