justine spohn Poems

Can this be true some one please dont pinch me.
I have this strange feeling in me.
I am smiling without trying and i think its called being happy.
I'm not sure really.
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Surrouned by people names and faces familure to the senses but more alone than ever. Emoitanal, physical, and mentaly abused.'Give up there is no use'They all say it the same. Couples around me something drounds me.

Suffercated, unbelievably jaded and sometimes faded.Torn, mixed, shattered then fixed. Somewere far off in my head in a land free of dred.Safe in your arms farthest from all harm. I wont give up no how no way.All these negatives but your somehow just so positive.
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I hear people speak of tears and sorrow.
I hear people speak of no tomorrow
You speak of crying while you fell.
You don't know what tears are until you've been to my side of hell...
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The mighty and beautiful red rose sits highest in the bush.
In the best corner of the yard where the sun shines all day.
A perfect amount of golden rays an angle among the saints.
Among the normal flower.
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Death is when your loved ones depart,

It is a sharp pain to your heart...
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why do i?
why continue to live.
why keep going
when all the people that i love
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i try to stop cutting
i want o stop cutting
but i cant that cold metal razor agianst my skin
the metalic bloody tast in my mouth
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I have failed you as a daughter
i bet your ashamed to be my father

failing life and failing school
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oooooh i am pushing up those daisy's even though they haaate me!
those daisy's they love you baby never me!
you garden them and fed them fertilizer.., but me i only pee :)
my laundry is done..
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