Standing in a puddle of rain
Said you'd never speak to her again
It's cold outside, and my mouth is dry
I'm the sun and you don't know why
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Some how controlling parts of me
The glowing aura the surrounds
Putting myself together once more
Only to be melted away by words
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Drops of reality finally land
Dressing me in storm clouds
Wanting everything to be sane
Sitting here letting the cigarette burn
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The longing indside says it's okay
The mind and heart pleading no
What do I do,
What side of the fence to I jump to...or maybe even run
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Seeing you standing there
So confident without a care
I am uncertain of what to do
How on earth could I hurt someone like you
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Once again he left me speechless
The thought of his last words
Well, the ones really heard
Complicating my thoughts
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Never understanding why
Confused with everything
Being thrown or forced
No escape, kicked
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Misplaced
Lost between the leaves
Below the ashes
Waiting to be stirred
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Let me see the reality of life inside
Is it the reality I long to see
Or just a wish I don't want
Questions fall like rain
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Bringing a new virus with every breath
A glimpse that turned into a stare
(Breathe and continue)
Random thougts of nothingness
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