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Why must this hurt so badly
And why am I hurting again
I fell for this one truly, madly
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Words spoken out of anger
Who i love now a stranger
Truths bent and contorted
Everything said and distorted
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there is nothing in existence I can satisfy
there is no kind of persistence that can pacify
this constant need for more
or restore the person i once was before
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How can she be gone when I still feel her embrace
The warmth of her touch, I see the looks on her face
These comforts time will soon take
and leave the thoughts that keep me awake
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I want a metal detector,
I need to dig things up.
There's so much in the dirt,
and I can't get enough.
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This parable learned the hard way is daunting
In a life lived solitary lonely and wanting
But this is what I get for trying to trap a star
Let down, scarred..any effort fools and mars
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I met a man one cold winter day
He spoke to me in an unfamiliar way
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The train comes by every morning bout 5
I wish that train would find a cliff and collide
Before the demons with it arrive
Always, some poison they unpack
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How should I know what to do?
I spent my whole life plotting the next move.
How should I know what the truth is?
I was taught to think of myself as useless.
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why am i holding on
why do i not let go
of what's been long gone
if pain is all i know
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